WAN

I dont know why all of a sudden I remembered you tonight. Maybe its just because I hate you so much or just because maybe it's the 12/12 today and for "some" reason, this particular date reminds me of you, whatever the reason may be, I still hate your guts even though it has been 18 whole months that things between us happened or didnt happen, I still cant get over the fact that I was so stupid in believing your stupid ass the first place. So this isnt actually about you, its about my stupidity, combined with your heinous and horrible self plus my extreme stupidity again for actually thinking you were a descent human being.

I still cant get over the fact of why I let myself be drowned in your sea of crap and bullshit all over again and thinking you were actually the one I wanted. Why I even consider making you apart of my life. I was so stupid for chasing you again and again while you just lie to my face and ignore me like I'm just a piece of shit.

I finally got over you and your crap after six whole months of being tortured and miserable. Waking up everyday was like a god damn marathon of missing you and being lonely, and the worst thing is, you actually know that you were doing this to me, you actually know that I was practically dying because you tore me apart into ways uncountable. I was broken, I looked at myself as a failure, as something not worthy for anyone. And all along you knew all of this, you knew.

I got tired of you, everything about you was wearing me out and I just got tired. But being you, you still had the courage to talk to me. Still had the courage to call me? To text me? For what? You're truly a masterpiece.

x ada pendirian.

pengecut.

penipu.

cheater.

xx